Paranoia.

I am writing this blog from my itouch. This is what I call AWESOMENESS!

Ever since the resurrection of this public blog of mine, I cannot seem to stop thinking of the many crazy stuffs I should write here. Then i end up writing nonsense, out of this world thoughts. (Bias ako, para sakin may sense lahat ng sinusulat ko dito)

I am exceptionally curious of this irrational term we call PARANOIA. I searched for the meaning from Mr.Google (Oh! What are we going to do without you). Here goes: Paranoia is a psychotic disorder characterized by delusions of persecution with or without grandeur, often strenuously defended with apparent logic and reason. [Guys, wait lang kuha ako tissue kase medyo dumudugo ilong ko dito ngayon. Ay linshak! may maikling meaning naman pala.] In short understandable words, it is an extreme distrust of others.

Why am I curious about this? First of all, I just would like to figure out WHY some people are obsessively paranoid. This may include me. Second, HOW do we know that we are suffering from this? Lastly, WHAT are the ways to avoid this?

Here are some situations which I am not really sure if they're Paranoia.

- One day, while I was sitting in front of the computer, I suddenly felt like there was an earthquake. Then after a few minutes I realized, there was no earthquake happening at all. Can I consider this paranoia?

- While I was watching TV, I got alarmed that a cockroach was flying towards me. But really, there was none. Is this being paranoid?

- Every time I ride the MRT and LRT going to school, I was so cautious of the surroundings, suspecting everybody as pick-pocketer or bomber. Am I paranoid?

- I keep on thinking that my officemates are still talking about me.

Apparently, I get paranoid of simple things such as the examples I mentioned above. But, I am particularly concerned about having paranoia that badly affects yourself, your girlfriend, and even your friends.

YOU! Yes, I am talking to you. This is for you. (Kahit di mo mababasa, gusto ko lang sabihin.) Why are you so paranoid? Do you not get assurance from your girlfriend that she loves you? Or maybe you lack that self-confidence. Why do you keep on bugging other people who have their own lives now? You do not have the right to do so. It is you who have trust issues here. It is only you who can help yourself. So please, stop acting like a mad barking kid. Okay? Malinaw ba yun? Kung hindi, edi magsalamin ka! Pwede?!

Whew! Na-tipus ako sandali dun.